Collection of Thoughts
by Christian Light: An
Airmanís Story of Changing From a Neocon to Libertarian†Anarchist
As a libertarian
I hate the word we. We may all be Libertarians here. Whether
you are of the anarchist variety or minarchist we have one thing
in common, we hate the state. As a libertarian anarchist I hate
the state, I might hate it more than most anarcho-capitalists do.
I hate everything it stands for. Hate is a strong word, but it describes
what I feel. Why shouldnít we use the word hate to describe how
we feel toward this entity we call the state? I think we should
use the word hate. After all, we are describing an institution that
claims to have absolute control over us! That claims it owns us,
it owns our actions. The very thought of this disgusts me. I hate
the very thought of the state, the very thought of the state.
I am a sovereign human being! How dare someone else tell me how
I should live or what I should do with my life! I am a free human
being. No government has to tell me Iím free. I know that I was
born free. I donítí have to explain myself to anyone or any government.
The only thing
we learn from history is that we never learn from history. Weíve
been studying the Old Testament in my Philosophy class. What have
I learned? (It was a question on one of my tests I just took) What
I put was this. "I have learned that even since biblical timeís
human nature has not changed. Technology has changed; it has changed
our standard of living fundamentally. However human nature remains
the same. We still do things that affect our fellow man. That hurt
us all, our family, and our friends. This is sadÖwill we ever learn?
Maybe not. No, we probably never will. We will continue to live
our lives, Ignorant of feelings for others." We are a race
that keeps repeating errors of our past. This is a very bleak observation
of human nature, but this is human nature. This is what makes us
human. Iím not a pessimist or an optimist really. Iím a realist.
I look at things objectively and state what I see. Not what I want
to see. This is what I see in human nature. When I tell people about
how I believe the only moral society is one where all actions between
people are voluntary, they say that this is some kind of utopia.
I donít believe in utopia, and I donít think any other person who
believes in a voluntary society believes it will be utopia. I tell
these people that I donít believe in utopia. I believe this is the
most moral society and that this is the best way for society to
be run. It wonít be perfect. No society is. There will still be
murders, rapes, other crimes. However, I think that the commitance
of these crimes will be greatly reduced in a voluntary society.
Remember that true freedom does not mean security. This is the essence
As of late
I have been very disturbed about something. Christians and the Christian
right in particular. It bothers me greatly how hawkish these people
are. How they worship the state and call for more and more wars
and killing. Itís sickening to me how they pervert the word of God.
The Bible tells us to have no other Gods before God. But the Christian
right has a God in something else. The state, and in particular
the military of the state. They absolutely love the military. They
canít get enough of it. They love everything about it, the uniform,
the killing, the wars, and the way of life it instills. I just donít
understand what happened. Why these individuals somehow think that
the wars are moral and most even have the audacity to say that we
are doing Godís work. Thatís funny, isnít Jesus called the prince
of peace? Didnít he teach us to love our enemies, to love our neighbors,
to be compassionate towards others, to help others? What happened
to these values? In the mind of these people War is peace, freedom
is slavery, ignorance is strength.
In April I
was still awaiting word on my discharge. Well, it finally went through.
The military decided I shouldnít remain within their ranks. Iím
glad I am finally out. Iím fortunate that I was discharged. I would
like to thank my commander personally. Without him I do not think
I would be out of the military right now. He was the one that decided
to let the discharge go through. I received an honorable discharge.
July 3rd was the day. The day I separated from the immoral
institution known as the United States Military. The so called U.S.
Air Force. A force that destroys with its drone attacks. The bravery
of being out of range my friends, the so called bravery. So brave
they donít even have to leave their country to kill some of their
own human beings. They only have to drive 20 minutes from home to
do it. To control a joystick 20 minutes from home, to kill a terrorist.
What a great feeling. They must be proud of what they do. The Bravery
of being out of range, as we kill from thousands of miles away.
Thank God our brave soldiers, marines, airman, and sailors are sacrificing
their lives to protect our freedoms!!!!! What a joke. Protect our
freedoms. More like protect our tyranny. I used to be proud of what
I did, joining the military and such. Now I hate it. Itís a constant
reminder of a terrible decision I made early in my life. A decision
that caused me to serve tyranny and empire. I didnít defend freedom
and liberty. Itís all a lie. I have to live with that every day.
I have to live with the fact that I made a decision to serve tyranny
and not freedom. Sure, I was brainwashed into believing the American
way was the right way, but this is a very different country than
the one that was founded. That still doesnít mean I can forgive
myself. These are things that I have to look back upon for the rest
of my life and contemplate. To contemplate and make sure I made
the right decision. Iím completely sure I made the right decision
to get out of the military early. Every day I was afraid that they
were going to start a new war somewhere. That I was going to be
forced to be part of something I thought was morally wrong. I was
most afraid of being thrown in jail. I told my chain of command
that I would not participate in the next war they start. I didnít
even care if it was declared by congress or not. There was no way
in good moral conscience that I could participate in another immoral
war. I thank God that it never came to that. I guess after the election
we will see how serious Obama or Romney really are about Iran. Iím
just glad that I wonít be still in the military when they make that
Itís been 2
Ĺ months since I separated. Iím back in Texas living with one of
buddies here. Now Iím working full time delivering pizza at dominos
and going to school full time (thanks to my GI Bill). I did struggle
for a bit deciding on whether I should use government services or
not (like my GI Bill, Pell Grant, other benefits the state hands
out) I read what Walter Block had to say about it and changed my
mind. Why shouldnít we use these services, after all itís our money!
The government stole that money from me in taxes to pay for these
services. So now I donít feel guilty at all getting money from the
government. I just see it as getting money back that was stolen
from me. My goal is to finish up my associates and transfer to Loyola
University in New Orleans where Walter Block currently works. I
want to get a doctorate in economics and be an economics professor
one day. I think this is one of the best ways for me to contribute
to the freedom movement. The Austro-libertarian philosophy is such
a huge influence on my life and I think I should do something in
that field. At the end of October I am going to attend the Supporters
Summit in Callaway Gardens. Iím very much looking forward to this.
It will be exciting to see and meet all the people I listen to and
learn from in real life. Itís been hard adjusting from military
to civilian life again. Iím happy that I am out, but I still have
much to reflect on. I have much to learn, but I am young and my
journey is just beginning.
Light [send him mail]
is a former Air Force Security Forces Airman. After joining the
military he became disillusioned and became a Ron Paul minarchist,
eventually gravitating and becoming a Rothbardian Anarcho-capitalist.
He currently lives in Texas and is aspiring to be an economics professor.
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